我离开，但留下了我的眷念
<p>秋起，凉风瑟瑟。南方的小城，在经历了酷暑炙烤之后，也开始变得静谧，偶尔看到枯萎的树叶飘落，但依旧看到了一地的枯黄。他的心情开始有些压抑，他已经意识到知道他的生命是有限的。他想起了龚自珍的一句诗：“落红不是无情物，化作春泥更护花。”</p><p><span word="In">In</span> <span word="autumn">autumn</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="wind">wind</span> <span word="is">is</span> <span word="cold">cold</span>. <span word="After">After</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="scorching">scorching</span> <span word="heat">heat</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="small">small</span> <span word="town">town</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="South">South</span> <span word="also">also</span> <span word="began">began</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="become">become</span> <span word="quiet">quiet</span>. <span word="Occasionally">Occasionally</span>, <span word="it">it</span> <span word="saw">saw</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="withered">withered</span> <span word="leaves">leaves</span> <span word="falling">falling</span>, <span word="but">but</span> <span word="still">still</span> <span word="saw">saw</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="withered">withered</span> <span word="yellow">yellow</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="ground">ground</span>. <span word="He">He</span> <span word="began">began</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="feel">feel</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="little">little</span> <span word="depressed">depressed</span>. <span word="He">He</span> <span word="had">had</span> <span word="realized">realized</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="life">life</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="limited">limited</span>. <span word="He">He</span> <span word="thought">thought</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="Gong">Gong</span> <span word="Zizhen">Zizhen</span>'<span word="s">s</span> <span word="poem">poem</span>: "<span word="falling">falling</span> <span word="red">red</span> <span word="is">is</span> <span word="not">not</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="ruthless">ruthless</span> <span word="thing">thing</span>. <span word="It">It</span> <span word="turns">turns</span> <span word="into">into</span> <span word="spring">spring</span> <span word="mud">mud</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="protect">protect</span> <span word="flowers">flowers</span>."</p><p>他默默地说念着：“花谢了，叶落了，依依不舍，当我生命消逝的时候，我还能做什么？”他告诉自己，还是要乐观的生活，就算生命消逝了，我依然可以骄傲的离开。半年前，当他得知自己白血病的时候，曾一度不想告诉母亲，母亲是他唯一的亲人，他觉得这样的打击对于母亲来说实在太大。但，终究他必须让母亲知道自己的病情。母亲知道消息的那一刻，嚎啕大哭，他抱着母亲说：“妈妈，不要哭泣。”那一年他才19岁。</p><p><span word="He">He</span> <span word="said">said</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="silence">silence</span>, "<span word="the">the</span> <span word="flowers">flowers</span> <span word="are">are</span> <span word="fading">fading</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="leaves">leaves</span> <span word="are">are</span> <span word="falling">falling</span>, <span word="reluctant">reluctant</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="give">give</span> <span word="up">up</span>. <span word="When">When</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="life">life</span> <span word="is">is</span> <span word="gone">gone</span>, <span word="what">what</span> <span word="else">else</span> <span word="can">can</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="do">do</span>?" <span word="He">He</span> <span word="told">told</span> <span word="himself">himself</span>, <span word="or">or</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="optimistic">optimistic</span> <span word="life">life</span>, <span word="even">even</span> <span word="if">if</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="life">life</span> <span word="disappeared">disappeared</span>, <span word="I">I</span> <span word="can">can</span> <span word="still">still</span> <span word="leave">leave</span> <span word="proudly">proudly</span>. <span word="Half">Half</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="year">year</span> <span word="ago">ago</span>, <span word="when">when</span> <span word="he">he</span> <span word="learned">learned</span> <span word="about">about</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="leukemia">leukemia</span>, <span word="he">he</span> <span word="didn">didn</span>'<span word="t">t</span> <span word="want">want</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="tell">tell</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="mother">mother</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="mother">mother</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="only">only</span> <span word="relative">relative</span>. <span word="He">He</span> <span word="felt">felt</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="such">such</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="blow">blow</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="too">too</span> <span word="big">big</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="mother">mother</span>. <span word="But">But</span> <span word="after">after</span> <span word="all">all</span>, <span word="he">he</span> <span word="had">had</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="let">let</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="mother">mother</span> <span word="know">know</span> <span word="about">about</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="illness">illness</span>. <span word="At">At</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="moment">moment</span> <span word="when">when</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="mother">mother</span> <span word="knew">knew</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="news">news</span>, <span word="he">he</span> <span word="cried">cried</span>. <span word="He">He</span> <span word="held">held</span> <span word="his">his</span> <span word="mother">mother</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="said">said</span>, "<span word="Mom">Mom</span>, <span word="don">don</span>'<span word="t">t</span> <span word="cry">cry</span>." <span word="He">He</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="only">only</span> 19 <span word="that">that</span> <span word="year">year</span>.</p>
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