母亲的遗物 Selling My Mothers Dresses
<p>母亲去世后，我开始爱上了逛旧货市场。我喜欢在听过的<span word="CD">CD</span>、穿过的牛仔裤、围过的丝巾中探寻它们主人曾经的故事，似乎这么一来，这些物品以前见证过的欢笑或是感动就能得以延续……</p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="like">like</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="think">think</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="bit">bit</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="laughter">laughter</span>, <span word="sense">sense</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="wonder">wonder</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="fun">fun</span> <span word="travels">travels</span> <span word="with">with</span> <span word="them">them</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="any">any</span> <span word="tears">tears</span> <span word="or">or</span> <span word="sadness">sadness</span> <span word="are">are</span> <span word="long">long</span> <span word="since">since</span> <span word="washed">washed</span> <span word="away">away</span>.</p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="moved">moved</span> <span word="from">from</span> <span word="Chicago">Chicago</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="Brooklyn">Brooklyn</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="July">July</span> <span word="of">of</span> 2004, <span word="just">just</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="time">time</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="watch">watch</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="mother">mother</span> <span word="die">die</span>. <span word="That">That</span> <span word="wasn">wasn</span>'<span word="t">t</span> <span word="why">why</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="moved">moved</span> <span word="back">back</span>. <span word="She">She</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="supposed">supposed</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="be">be</span> <span word="getting">getting</span> <span word="better">better</span>; <span word="the">the</span> <span word="chemo">chemo</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="working">working</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="came">came</span> <span word="because">because</span> <span word="I">I</span>'<span word="d">d</span> <span word="rented">rented</span> <span word="an">an</span> <span word="apartment">apartment</span> <span word="with">with</span> <span word="Jay">Jay</span>, <span word="this">this</span> <span word="cute">cute</span> <span word="guy">guy</span> <span word="I">I</span>'<span word="d">d</span> <span word="started">started</span> <span word="dating">dating</span>, <span word="who">who</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="originally">originally</span> <span word="from">from</span> <span word="New">New</span> <span word="York">York</span> <span word="too">too</span>. <span word="But">But</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="week">week</span> <span word="after">after</span> <span word="pulling">pulling</span> <span word="up">up</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="U">U</span>-<span word="Haul">Haul</span>, <span word="I">I</span> <span word="found">found</span> <span word="myself">myself</span> <span word="cleaning">cleaning</span> <span word="out">out</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="childhood">childhood</span> <span word="home">home</span> <span word="with">with</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="siblings">siblings</span>. <span word="Our">Our</span> <span word="parents">parents</span> <span word="were">were</span> <span word="both">both</span> <span word="gone">gone</span> <span word="now">now</span>; <span word="anything">anything</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="we">we</span> <span word="couldn">couldn</span>'<span word="t">t</span> <span word="take">take</span> <span word="with">with</span> <span word="us">us</span> <span word="had">had</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="fit">fit</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="a">a</span> 20-<span word="cubic">cubic</span>-<span word="yard">yard</span> <span word="Dumpster">Dumpster</span>.</p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="could">could</span> <span word="barely">barely</span> <span word="squeeze">squeeze</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="little">little</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="saved">saved</span> <span word="into">into</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="one">one</span>-<span word="bedroom">bedroom</span> <span word="Jay">Jay</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="shared">shared</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="didn">didn</span>'<span word="t">t</span> <span word="even">even</span> <span word="try">try</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="unpack">unpack</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="boxes">boxes</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="parents">parents</span>' <span word="books">books</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="bags">bags</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="mom">mom</span>'<span word="s">s</span> <span word="dresses">dresses</span>. <span word="Jay">Jay</span> (<span word="who">who</span> <span word="held">held</span> <span word="me">me</span> <span word="up">up</span> <span word="at">at</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="funeral">funeral</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="painted">painted</span> <span word="our">our</span> <span word="place">place</span> <span word="all">all</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="favorite">favorite</span> <span word="colors">colors</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="quickly">quickly</span> <span word="proved">proved</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="be">be</span> <span word="much">much</span> <span word="more">more</span> <span word="than">than</span> <span word="just">just</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="cute">cute</span> <span word="guy">guy</span>) <span word="had">had</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="shimmy">shimmy</span> <span word="sideways">sideways</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="get">get</span> <span word="between">between</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="father">father</span>'<span word="s">s</span> <span word="easy">easy</span> <span word="chair">chair</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="mother">mother</span>'<span word="s">s</span> <span word="broken">broken</span> <span word="desk">desk</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="claustrophobic">claustrophobic</span> <span word="from">from</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="mountains">mountains</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="photos">photos</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="misplaced">misplaced</span> <span word="knickknacks">knickknacks</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="yet">yet</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="found">found</span> <span word="myself">myself</span> <span word="drawn">drawn</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="someone">someone</span> <span word="else">else</span>'<span word="s">s</span> <span word="castoffs">castoffs</span>. <span word="We">We</span> <span word="hadn">hadn</span>'<span word="t">t</span> <span word="lived">lived</span> <span word="there">there</span> <span word="more">more</span> <span word="than">than</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="month">month</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="already">already</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="claustrophobic">claustrophobic</span> <span word="from">from</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="mountains">mountains</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="photos">photos</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="misplaced">misplaced</span> <span word="knickknacks">knickknacks</span>. <span word="So">So</span> <span word="it">it</span> <span word="made">made</span> <span word="no">no</span> <span word="sense">sense</span> <span word="when">when</span>, <span word="out">out</span> <span word="walking">walking</span> <span word="one">one</span> <span word="Saturday">Saturday</span> <span word="later">later</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="summer">summer</span>, <span word="something">something</span> <span word="caught">caught</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="eye">eye</span> — <span word="a">a</span> <span word="pale">pale</span> <span word="green">green</span> <span word="scrap">scrap</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="fabric">fabric</span> — <span word="and">and</span> <span word="suddenly">suddenly</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="steering">steering</span> <span word="Jay">Jay</span> <span word="toward">toward</span> <span word="someone">someone</span> <span word="else">else</span>'<span word="s">s</span> <span word="castoffs">castoffs</span>. <span word="My">My</span> <span word="first">first</span> <span word="stoop">stoop</span> <span word="sale">sale</span>.</p>
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