偶尔的时间浪费，其实没什么大不了
<p>喜欢计算生活中琐事花费的时间，喜欢通过计算和比较来督促自己，力图达到生活的平衡，可是生活远非数学方程式那么简单。偶然一次，陪伴女儿时我忘记了时间。随后，我开始刻意不去计较时间。渐渐地，内心的焦虑被平静所取代……</p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="don">don</span>’<span word="t">t</span> <span word="count">count</span>. <span word="That">That</span> <span word="is">is</span>, <span word="I">I</span> <span word="don">don</span>’<span word="t">t</span> <span word="count">count</span> <span word="stuff">stuff</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="used">used</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="count">count</span> <span word="stuff">stuff</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="lot">lot</span>: <span word="the">the</span> <span word="number">number</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="French">French</span> <span word="fries">fries</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="stole">stole</span> <span word="off">off</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="husband">husband</span>’<span word="s">s</span> <span word="plate">plate</span> <span word="at">at</span> <span word="any">any</span> <span word="given">given</span> <span word="dinner">dinner</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="amount">amount</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="time">time</span> <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="d">d</span> <span word="need">need</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="spend">spend</span> <span word="on">on</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="treadmill">treadmill</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="make">make</span> <span word="up">up</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="it">it</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="next">next</span> <span word="day">day</span>; <span word="the">the</span> <span word="square">square</span> <span word="footage">footage</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="friend">friend</span>’<span word="s">s</span> <span word="apartment">apartment</span> (<span word="its">its</span> <span word="likely">likely</span> <span word="purchase">purchase</span> <span word="price">price</span>, <span word="my">my</span> <span word="host">host</span>’<span word="s">s</span> <span word="presumed">presumed</span> <span word="salary">salary</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="thus">thus</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="difference">difference</span> <span word="between">between</span> <span word="hers">hers</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="mine">mine</span>); <span word="and">and</span>, <span word="especially">especially</span> <span word="when">when</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="kids">kids</span> <span word="were">were</span> <span word="babies">babies</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="minutes">minutes</span>/<span word="hours">hours</span> <span word="between">between</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="time">time</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="husband">husband</span> <span word="said">said</span> <span word="he">he</span> <span word="would">would</span> <span word="come">come</span> <span word="home">home</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="rescue">rescue</span> <span word="me">me</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="actual">actual</span> <span word="moment">moment</span> <span word="when">when</span> <span word="he">he</span> <span word="sauntered">sauntered</span> <span word="through">through</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="door">door</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="counted">counted</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="order">order</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="keep">keep</span> <span word="track">track</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="deficiencies">deficiencies</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="accomplishments">accomplishments</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="then">then</span> <span word="calculate">calculate</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="magic">magic</span> <span word="number">number</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="would">would</span> <span word="help">help</span> <span word="me">me</span> <span word="reach">reach</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="particular">particular</span> <span word="goal">goal</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="counted">counted</span> <span word="as">as</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="way">way</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="life">life</span>. <span word="But">But</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="most">most</span> <span word="part">part</span> <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="ve">ve</span> <span word="stopped">stopped</span> <span word="all">all</span> <span word="that">that</span>. <span word="And">And</span> <span word="while">while</span> <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="m">m</span> <span word="not">not</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="big">big</span> <span word="believer">believer</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="much">much</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="anything">anything</span>, <span word="I">I</span> <span word="would">would</span> <span word="say">say</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="not">not</span> <span word="counting">counting</span> <span word="has">has</span> <span word="saved">saved</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="life">life</span>.</p><p><span word="As">As</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="preternaturally">preternaturally</span> <span word="anxious">anxious</span> <span word="person">person</span>, <span word="perhaps">perhaps</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="born">born</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="tally">tally</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="also">also</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="committed">committed</span> <span word="dancer">dancer</span> <span word="throughout">throughout</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="teens">teens</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="like">like</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="lot">lot</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="people">people</span> <span word="studying">studying</span> <span word="ballet">ballet</span>, <span word="I">I</span> <span word="counted">counted</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="number">number</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="classes">classes</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="took">took</span> <span word="after">after</span> <span word="school">school</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="on">on</span> <span word="weekends">weekends</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="berated">berated</span> <span word="myself">myself</span> <span word="if">if</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="fell">fell</span> <span word="below">below</span> <span word="six">six</span> <span word="per">per</span> <span word="week">week</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="also">also</span> <span word="counted">counted</span> <span word="fouett">fouett</span>é <span word="turns">turns</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="measured">measured</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="height">height</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="grands">grands</span> <span word="battements">battements</span>.</p>
页:
[1]