美文赏析：初恋 First Love
<p><span word="A">A</span> <span word="surge">surge</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="adrenalin">adrenalin</span>, <span word="a">a</span> <span word="rush">rush</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="blood">blood</span>, <span word="a">a</span> <span word="thing">thing</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="innocence">innocence</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="pain">pain</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="lasts">lasts</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="lifetime">lifetime</span></p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="REMEMBER">REMEMBER</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="way">way</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="light">light</span> <span word="touched">touched</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="hair">hair</span>. <span word="She">She</span> <span word="turned">turned</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="head">head</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="our">our</span> <span word="eyes">eyes</span> <span word="met">met</span>, <span word="a">a</span> <span word="momentary">momentary</span> <span word="awareness">awareness</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="thatraucous">thatraucous</span> <span word="fifth">fifth</span>-<span word="grade">grade</span> <span word="classroom">classroom</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="felt">felt</span> <span word="as">as</span> <span word="though">though</span> <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="d">d</span> <span word="been">been</span> <span word="struck">struck</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="blow">blow</span> <span word="under">under</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="heart">heart</span>. <span word="Thus">Thus</span> <span word="began">began</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="first">first</span> <span word="love">love</span> <span word="affair">affair</span>.</p><p><span word="Her">Her</span> <span word="name">name</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="Rachel">Rachel</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="mooned">mooned</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="way">way</span> <span word="through">through</span> <span word="grade">grade</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="high">high</span> <span word="school">school</span>, <span word="stricken">stricken</span> <span word="at">at</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="mere">mere</span> <span word="sight">sight</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="her">her</span>, <span word="tongue">tongue</span>-<span word="tied">tied</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="presence">presence</span>. <span word="Does">Does</span> <span word="anyone">anyone</span>, <span word="anymore">anymore</span>, <span word="linger">linger</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="shadows">shadows</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="evening">evening</span>, <span word="drawn">drawn</span> <span word="by">by</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="pale">pale</span> <span word="light">light</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="window">window</span>-<span word="her">her</span> <span word="window">window</span>-<span word="like">like</span> <span word="some">some</span> <span word="hapless">hapless</span> <span word="summer">summer</span> <span word="insect">insect</span>? <span word="That">That</span> <span word="delirious">delirious</span> <span word="swooning">swooning</span>, <span word="asexual">asexual</span> <span word="but">but</span> <span word="urgent">urgent</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="obsessive">obsessive</span>, <span word="that">that</span> <span word="made">made</span> <span word="me">me</span> <span word="awkward">awkward</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="voice">voice</span> <span word="crack">crack</span>, <span word="is">is</span> <span word="like">like</span> <span word="some">some</span> <span word="impossible">impossible</span> <span word="dream">dream</span> <span word="now">now</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="know">know</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="so">so</span> <span word="afflicted">afflicted</span>, <span word="but">but</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="cannot">cannot</span> <span word="actually">actually</span> <span word="believe">believe</span> <span word="what">what</span> <span word="memory">memory</span> <span word="insists">insists</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="did">did</span>. <span word="Which">Which</span> <span word="was">was</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="suffer">suffer</span>. <span word="Exquisitely">Exquisitely</span>.</p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="would">would</span> <span word="catch">catch</span> <span word="sight">sight</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="her">her</span>, <span word="walking">walking</span> <span word="down">down</span> <span word="an">an</span> <span word="aisle">aisle</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="trees">trees</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="or">or</span> <span word="from">from</span> <span word="school">school</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="d">d</span> <span word="become">become</span> <span word="paralyzed">paralyzed</span>. <span word="She">She</span> <span word="always">always</span> <span word="seemed">seemed</span> <span word="so">so</span> <span word="poised">poised</span>, <span word="so">so</span> <span word="self">self</span>-<span word="possessed">possessed</span>. <span word="At">At</span> <span word="home">home</span>, <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="d">d</span> <span word="relieve">relieve</span> <span word="each">each</span> <span word="encounter">encounter</span>, <span word="writhing">writhing</span> <span word="at">at</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="thought">thought</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="inadequacies">inadequacies</span>. <span word="Even">Even</span> <span word="so">so</span>, <span word="as">as</span> <span word="we">we</span> <span word="entered">entered</span> <span word="our">our</span> <span word="teens">teens</span>, <span word="I">I</span> <span word="sensed">sensed</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="affectionate">affectionate</span> <span word="tolerance">tolerance</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="me">me</span>.</p><p>“<span word="Going">Going</span> <span word="steady">steady</span>” <span word="implied">implied</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="maturity">maturity</span> <span word="we">we</span> <span word="still">still</span> <span word="lacked">lacked</span>. <span word="Her">Her</span> <span word="Orthodox">Orthodox</span> <span word="Jewish">Jewish</span> <span word="upbringing">upbringing</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="own">own</span> <span word="Catholic">Catholic</span> <span word="scruples">scruples</span> <span word="imposed">imposed</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="celibate">celibate</span> <span word="grace">grace</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="made">made</span> <span word="even">even</span> <span word="kissing">kissing</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="distant">distant</span> <span word="prospect">prospect</span>, <span word="however">however</span> <span word="fervently">fervently</span> <span word="desired">desired</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="managed">managed</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="hold">hold</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="once">once</span> <span word="at">at</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="dance">dance</span> - <span word="chaperoned">chaperoned</span>, <span word="of">of</span> <span word="course">course</span>. <span word="Our">Our</span> <span word="embrace">embrace</span> <span word="made">made</span> <span word="her">her</span> <span word="giggle">giggle</span>, <span word="a">a</span> <span word="sound">sound</span> <span word="so">so</span> <span word="trusting">trusting</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="hated">hated</span> <span word="myself">myself</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="what">what</span> <span word="I">I</span>’<span word="d">d</span> <span word="been">been</span> <span word="thinking">thinking</span>.</p>
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