我为什么活着What I Have Lived For
<p><span word="Three">Three</span> <span word="passions">passions</span>, <span word="simple">simple</span> <span word="but">but</span> <span word="overwhelmingly">overwhelmingly</span> <span word="strong">strong</span>, <span word="have">have</span> <span word="governed">governed</span> <span word="my">my</span> <span word="life">life</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="longing">longing</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="love">love</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="search">search</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="knowledge">knowledge</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="unbearable">unbearable</span> <span word="pity">pity</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="suffering">suffering</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="mankind">mankind</span>. <span word="These">These</span> <span word="passions">passions</span> <span word="like">like</span> <span word="great">great</span> <span word="winds">winds</span>, <span word="have">have</span> <span word="blown">blown</span> <span word="me">me</span> <span word="hither">hither</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="thither">thither</span>, <span word="in">in</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="wayward">wayward</span> <span word="course">course</span>, <span word="over">over</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="great">great</span> <span word="ocean">ocean</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="anguish">anguish</span>, <span word="reaching">reaching</span> <span word="to">to</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="very">very</span> <span word="verge">verge</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="despair">despair</span>.</p><p>三种简单而强烈的情感支配着我的生活：对爱的渴望、对知识的追求和对受苦之人的同情?这些情感就像大风一样，把我随风卷起，飘忽不定地越过痛苦之海，来到了绝望的边缘。</p><p><span word="I">I</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="sought">sought</span> <span word="love">love</span>, <span word="first">first</span>, <span word="because">because</span> <span word="it">it</span> <span word="brings">brings</span> <span word="ecstasy">ecstasy</span>-<span word="ecstasy">ecstasy</span> <span word="so">so</span> <span word="great">great</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="would">would</span> <span word="often">often</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="sacrificed">sacrificed</span> <span word="all">all</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="rest">rest</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="life">life</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="few">few</span> <span word="hours">hours</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="this">this</span> <span word="joy">joy</span>. <span word="I">I</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="sought">sought</span> <span word="it">it</span>, <span word="next">next</span>, <span word="because">because</span> <span word="it">it</span> <span word="relieves">relieves</span> <span word="loneliness">loneliness</span>-<span word="that">that</span> <span word="terrible">terrible</span> <span word="loneliness">loneliness</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="which">which</span> <span word="one">one</span> <span word="shivering">shivering</span> <span word="consciousness">consciousness</span> <span word="looks">looks</span> <span word="over">over</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="rim">rim</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="world">world</span> <span word="into">into</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="cold">cold</span> <span word="unfathomable">unfathomable</span> <span word="lifeless">lifeless</span> <span word="abyss">abyss</span> .<span word="I">I</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="sought">sought</span> <span word="it">it</span> <span word="finally">finally</span>, <span word="because">because</span> <span word="in">in</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="union">union</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="love">love</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="seen">seen</span>, <span word="in">in</span> <span word="a">a</span> <span word="mystic">mystic</span> <span word="miniature">miniature</span>, <span word="the">the</span> <span word="prefiguring">prefiguring</span> <span word="vision">vision</span> <span word="of">of</span> <span word="the">the</span> <span word="heaven">heaven</span> <span word="that">that</span> <span word="saints">saints</span> <span word="and">and</span> <span word="poets">poets</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="imagined">imagined</span>. <span word="This">This</span> <span word="is">is</span> <span word="what">what</span> <span word="I">I</span> <span word="sought">sought</span>, <span word="and">and</span> <span word="though">though</span> <span word="it">it</span> <span word="might">might</span> <span word="seem">seem</span> <span word="too">too</span> <span word="good">good</span> <span word="for">for</span> <span word="human">human</span> <span word="life">life</span>. <span word="This">This</span> <span word="is">is</span> <span word="what">what</span>-<span word="at">at</span> <span word="last">last</span>-<span word="l">l</span> <span word="have">have</span> <span word="found">found</span>.</p><p>我追寻过爱，首先，因为它给我带来了莫大的喜悦——这喜悦是如此的强烈，往往会让我牺牲生命中其他的一切只为了体验几个小时爱的喜悦<span word="j">j</span>其次，它排遣了寂寞——在那种可怕的寂寞之中，一个颤抖的灵魂，越过世界的边际，进入那酷寒，深不可测而又了无生气的无底深渊，我追求过爱，最后是因为在爱的结合中我看过圣人和诗人所希冀的天堂的微缩景象这就是我所追寻的人生的境界，这似乎对人类而言太过美好，这是我最终所发现的。</p>
页:
[1]